Thursday, February 23, 2012

It's been a while...

I could write a lie, something very poetic and lovely, but the honest truth is I haven't really had anything great to say. You know the old adage, "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all." Well that's kinda where I've been. Don't get me wrong, I have a great job, a lovely home and an amazing family. That's what really matters right? Mmm...

I've been in a private slump. I've been working through it and I'm on the upswing. Life has just handed me a stack of cards that I'm not really sure how to play. This December has been the toughest of my life. Yes, I do know that it's the middle of February. The anniversary of mom's death had me really low. I'm not sure why this year was any different but it just felt heavier. Then her mother unexpectedly passed. I want to say that she died of heartache but I'm not really sure why it was her time. I know that I have no idea of the bigger plan and I am looking for the bigger lesson, but I am a little lost. I felt my most vulnerable and then I was thrown another curve to navigate. This is what life is like. But really? Not really sure where I'm going with this but today is tough. Guess today is just gonna be a rough one, could be the rain who knows. Pity party! Table for one!

teacher vs. mama

It is no wonder that often I am caught between being a mother and being a teacher. I have said many times that I can not do both well at the...